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VOL. I.]

A Journal of Choice Reading,

SELECTED FROM FOREIGN CURRENT LITERATURE.

SATURDAY, APRIL 21, 1866.

MISERY-MONGERS.

BY THE AUTHOR OF

"JOHN HALIFAX."

"Poor fellow," said A. to B., looking after C. (a mutual friend) with mingled regard and regret. "He will never be happy himself, nor make any other human being happy."

It was most true. Poor C. was a very worthy man; an honest, kindly, and well-intentioned man; well-to-do in business; in his domestic relations rather fortunate than otherwise; blessed with good health, good looks, and rather more than the average of brains. Altogether an enviable person externally. Yet his friend, apparently much less lucky than himself, regarded him with the profoundest pity. “No, C. will never be happy. Nothing in this world would ever make him happy." And nothing ever did.

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own littleness. Consequently, he is saved at once
from a hundred vexations which dog the heels of
a mental Chang -a seven-foot giant of genius-
who is always measuring himself with Tom, Dick,
and Harry, and requiring, or fancying he requires,
larger clothes, longer beds, and bigger hats than they.
When Tom, Dick, and Harry, annoyed at these
very much taller than themselves, cut him up in re-
exactions, find that the small son of Anak is not so
views or snub him in society, great is the vexation
of spirit he endures. But your real giant, who never
thinks of Tom, Dick, and Harry at all, takes the
matter quite calmly: whatever be his own altitude,
he sees before him an ideal far higher than himself,
and ten times higher than anything they see, and
this keeps him at once very humble in his own
essayist, though decidedly not a man of genius, has
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them neither strutting like peacocks nor marching C. is no uncommon character. He was a misery-known a good many such, and has always found on stilts, but moving about as mild and tame as the monger: one of those moral cuttle-fishes who carry If elephant in the Zoological Gardens, and as apabout with them, and produce out of their own organism, the black liquid in which they swim. second-rate, your merely clever man, who, they could only swim in it alone! Is it any good parently unconscious of their own magnitude. It these poor creatures, to show their own likeness, who, without any real woe, contrive to make them- ape-like, is always rattling at the bars of his cage; eagerly holding out his paw for the nuts and apples selves and everybody about them thoroughly miser- mopping and mowing to attract attention, and of public appreciation, which, if he does not get able? Can we shake them out of their folly by a word of common sense? Probably not; your confirmed misery-monger is the most hopeless being in why he sits and howls! creation; but there are incipient stages of the complaint, which, taken in time, are curable. To such, it may not be unadvisable to present these incurables as a wholesome "shocking example." Misery-mongers (the word is not to be found in Johnson, yet it suits) are those who do not really suffer affliction, but make a trade of it, and often a very thriving business too. They are scattered among every class, but especially they belong to the genus irritabile," the second or third rate order of people who live by their brains. Not the first order, for the highest form of intellect is rarely miserable. True genius of the completest kind is not only a mental but a moral quality. Itself creates the atmosphere it lives in: a higher and rarer air than that of common earth.

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"Calm pleasures there abide; - majestic pains." To a really great man, the petty vanities, shallow angers, and morbid crotchets of smaller natures are unknown. Above all, genius gives to its possessor a larger, clearer vision; eyes that look outwards, the source of not inwards. That enormous Ego so many puny woes to lesser minds rarely grows rampant in a man who is great enough to know his

Such people have rarely suffered any dire calamreal sorrow more often gives a steadiness ity or heart-deep blow. To have sat down with sorand balance to the whole character, and leaves behind a permanent consistent cheerfulness, more touching, and O how infinitely more blessed than the mirth of those who have never known grief! Also, after deep anguish comes a readiness to seize upon, make the best of, and enjoy to the uttermost, known famine will never waste even a crumb again. every passing pleasure: for the man who has once Rather will he look with compassionate wonder at the many who scatter recklessly their daily bread of comfort and peace; who turn disgusted from a simple breakfast, because they are looking forwards to a possible sumptuous dinner; or throw away contemptuously their wholesome crust, because they see, with envious eyes, their opposite neighbor feeding on plum-cake.

No, the miserable people whom one meets are not the really unhappy ones, or rather those who have actual misfortune to bear, there being a wide distinction between misfortune and unhappiness. How often do we see moving in society, carrying everywhere a pleasant face, and troubling no one with

their secret care, those whom we know are burdened with an inevitable incommunicable grief: an insane wife, a dissipated husband, tyrannical parents, or ungrateful children? Yet they say nothing about it, this skeleton in the cupboard, which their neighbors all know of or guess at, but upon which they themselves quietly turn the key, and go on their way; uncomplaining, and thankful to be spared complaining. What good will it do them to moan? It is not they, the unfortunate men, nor yet the men of genius, who contrive to make miserable their own lives and those of everybody connected with them. The true misery-mongers are a very different race; you may find the key to their mystery in Milton's famous axiom,

It may seem a dreadful doctrine to poetical people; but two thirds of a man's woes usually beginin his stomach. Irregular feeding, walking, and sleeping, with much too regular smoking, are the cause of half the melancholy poetry and cynical prose with which we are inundated. Also of many à miserable home, hiding its miseries under the decent decorum which society has the good taste and good feeling to abstain from prying too closely into; and of not a few open scandals, bankruptcies, and divorce cases. If a modern edition of the Miseries of Human Life were to be written, the author might well trace them to that unsanitary condition, first of body and then of mind, into which civilization, or the luxurious extreme of it, has brought us, and upon which some of us rather pride ourselves, as if it were a grand thing to be "morbid "; quite forMiserable getting the origin of the word, and that such a condition, whether mental or physical, or both combined, is, in truth, not life, but the beginning of death, to every human being.

"Fallen cherub, to be weak is miserable,
Doing or suffering."
There, for once, the Devil spoke truth.
people are invariably weak people.

"O well for him whose will is strong,
He suffers, but he will not suffer long;

He suffers, but he cannot suffer wrong." Of course not, because his firm will must in time shake off any suffering; and because no amount of externally inflicted evil is to be compared to the evil which a man inflicts upon himself; by feebleness of purpose, by cowardly non-resistance to oppression, and by a general uncertainty of aims or acts. He who sees the right, and cannot follow it; who loves all things noble, yet dare not fight against things ignoble in himself or others; who is haunted by a high ideal of what he wishes to be, yet is forever falling short of it, and tortured by the consciousness that he does fall short of it, and that his friends are judging him, not unjustly, by what he is rather than by what he vainly aims at being, - this man is, necessarily, one of the unhappiest creatures living. One of the most harmful too, since you can be on your guard against the downright villain, but the aesthetic evil-doer, the theoretically good and practically bad man, who has lofty aspirations without performances, virtuous impulses and no persistagainst such an one you have no weapons to use. He disarms your resentment by exciting your pity; is forever crying "Quarter, quarter!" and, though you feel that he deserves none, that his weakness has injured yourself and others as much as any wickedness, still, out of pure compassion, you sheathe your righteous sword and let him escape unpunished. Up he rises, fresh as ever, and pursues his course, always sinning and always repenting, yet claiming to be judged, not by the sin, but the penitence; continually and obstinately miserable, yet blind to the fact that half his misery is caused by

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And suppose it is so. Granted that I am a man with "nerves," or "liver," or any other permanent ailment, am I to make my ill-used and consequently ill-conducted interior a nuisance to all my family and friends? Did no man's head ever ache but mine? Is no one else blessed (or cursed) with a too sensitive organism, obliged to struggle with and control it, and at least contrive that it shall trouble others as little as possible? Why should my wife, sister, or daughter be expected to bestow unlimited sympathy upon every small suffering of mine, while she hides many an ache and pain which I never even know of, or, knowing, should scarcely heed, except so far as it affected my own personal comfort, or because it is a certain annoyance to me that anybody should require sympathy but myself? Have my friends no anxieties of their own that I should be forever laying upon them the burden of mine, — always exacting and requiting nothing? People like a fair balance, a cheery give and take in the usefulnesses as well as the pleasantnesses of life. Is it wonderful, then, that, after a time, they a little shrink from me, are shy of asking me to dinner? at least, often. For they feel I may be a cloud upon the social board; my moods are so various, they never know how to take me. They are very sorry for me, very kind to me, but, in plain English, they would rather have my room than my company. am too full of myself ever to be any pleasure or benefit to others.

For it is a curious fact, that the most self-contained natures are always the least self-engrossed; and those to whom everybody applies for help, most seldom ask or require it. The centre sun of every family, round which the others instinctively revolve, is sure to be a planet bright and fixed, carrying its light within itself. But a man whose soul is all darkness, or who is at best a poor wandering star, eager to kindle his puny candle at somebody else's beams, can be a light and a blessing to nobody.

And he may be- probably without intending it - quite the opposite. Who does not, in visiting a household, soon discover the one who contributes nothing to the happiness of the rest, who is a sort of eleemosynary pensioner on everybody's forbearance, living, as beggars do, by the continual exhibition of his sores, and often getting sympathy-as beggars get half-pence - just to be rid of him? Who does not recognize the person whose morning step upon the stair, so far from having" music in 't," sends a premonitory shiver, and even a dead silence, round

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Every Saturday,

April 21, 1866.

MISERY-MONGERS.

whose the cheerful, chattering breakfast-table? departure to business, or elsewhere, causes a sudden nay, whose very rise in the domestic barometer? quitting a room gives a sense of relief as of a cloud lifted off? Yet he may have many good qualities, but they are all obscured and rendered useless by the incessant recurrence to and absorption in self, the which is the root of all his endless woes. And, alas! as he wishes to be while believing himselfthat of most important person in his circle, our miserable friend fills really the lowest place therein, the one whom nobody trusts, nobody leans upon; whom everybody has to help, but who is never expected to help anybody. How could he? for in him is lacking the very foundation of all helpfulness, the strong, brave, cheerful spirit which, under all circumstances, will throw itself out of itself sufficiently to understand and be of use to its neighbor. Truly, as regards usefulness, one might as well attempt to labor in an unlighted coal-mine as to do one's work in the world in an atmosphere of perpetual gloom. Nature herself scorns the idea. Some of her operations are carried on in tender temporary shadow, but only temporary. Nothing with her is permanently dark, except the corruption of the grave. Wherever, in any man's temperament, is incurable sadness, morbid melancholy, be sure there is something also corrupt; something which shrinks from the light because it needs to be hid; something diseased, in body or mind, which, so far from being petted and indulged and glossed over with poetical fancies, needs to be rooted out with a hand, gentle, indeed, but strong and firm as that of the good surgeon, who deals deliberately present pain for future good.

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grow
into great bars between him and
filmy meshes
the sky, he thinks with his petty web he has blurred
the whole creation.

Poor wretch! if he could only pull it down and
sweep it away!-if he could accept his lot, even
though a hard one, an afflicted stomach, sensitive
nerves, a naturally bad temper, or an unnaturally
Be sure you do not suffer alone; many another is
empty purse. Still, my friend, grin and bear it!
him a helping hand, and strengthen yourself by the
much worse off than you. Why not try to give
giving of it? For we do not wish to make a mock
of you, you miserable misery-monger, since you
the bottom of your most contemptible shams. We
are much to be pitied; and there is a sad reality at
would rather rouse you to forget yourself, and then,
And supposing these should remain in greater or
be sure, you will gradually forget your sufferings.
less degree, as the necessary accompaniment of your
individual lot or peculiar idiosyncrasy, still, accord-
ing to the common-sense argument of the sage
author of "Original Poems," remonstrating with
an unwashed child,

"If the water is cold, and the comb hurts your head,
What good will it do you to cry?"
Alack! we are exceedingly like naughty children;
we do not enjoy being made clean.

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How much wiser is it to hide our Also, so far as it is possible, to wrongs, to smother our vexations, to bear our illnesses, whether of body or mind, as privately and silently as we can. bear them ourselves alone, thankful for sympathy, and help too, when it comes; but not going about beseeching for it, or angry when we do not get it, having strength enough to do without it, and rely solely on the Help Divine.

And yet, some of us who have gone through a ay, even Some of us feel rather severe course of lavatory education, can understand the blessings of a sunshiny face, in the midst of inevitable sorrow. the peace that dwells ever at the core of a contented heart, which, though it has ceased to expect the happiness of others. And many of us still show much happiness for itself, is ever ready to rejoice in A healthy temperament, though not insensible to in daily life the quiet dignity of endurance; of not sorrow, never revels in it or is subdued by it; it ac-dwelling upon or exaggerating unavoidable misforcepts it, endures it, and then looks round for the tune; of putting small annoyances in one's pocket, best mode of curing it. We cannot too strongly instead of flourishing them abroad in other people's novel-writing, and made her private wrong a public impress on the rising generation-who, like the faces, like the jilted spinster who "rushed into young bears, have all their troubles before them that suffering is not a normal, but an abnormal state; nuisance." and that to believe otherwise is to believe that this world is a mere chaos of torment made for the amusement of the omnipotent-not God, but Devil for some inscruwho rules it. Pain must exist table end-inseparable from the present economy of the world; but we ought, out of common sense and common justice, and especially religion, to reFor to that point it must always come. The man gard it, not as the law of our lives, but as an accident, usually resulting from our breaking that law. He is perpetually saying to his We cannot wholly prevent suffering, but we can who is incurably and permanently miserable is not guard against it, in degree; and we never need only an offence to his fellow-creatures, but a sinner Creator, " Why hast Thou made me thus? Why wholly succumb to it till we succumb to the univer- against his God. sal defeat, preparatory to the immortal victory. of how brief, at best, not have made me as I wanted to be, and have given When one thinks of death is our little day, and how quickly comes the end me such and such things which I desired to have? that levels all things, what folly seems the habit of I know they would have been good for me, and then misery?-for it grows into a mere habit, quite in- I should have been happy. I am far wiser than dependent of causes. Why keep up this perpetual Thou. Make me what I choose, and grant me what And so he lives, holding up his melancholy face, moan, and always about ourselves, because we are not I require, or else I will be perpetually miserable." rich enough, or handsome enough, or loved enough,because other people have better luck than we? Pos- poor fool! as an unceasing protest against the wisOverclouded at sibly they have; and possibly not: for we all know dom eternal,-against the sunshiny sky, the pleasant our own private cares, but few of us know our neigh-earth, and the happy loving hearts that are always bor's. And so we go on, always finding some pet griev- to be found somewhere therein. ance to nurse, and coaxing it from a trifling vexation times, doubtless, yet never quite losing their happiinto an incurable grief or an unpardonable wrong. ness while there is something left them to love, Little matter what it is; to a man of this tempera- though it be but a dirty crying child in the streets, Such people may be unhappy, may have to sufment any peg will do whereon to hang the gloomy whom they can comfort with a smile or a half-penny. pall, self-woven, of perpetual sorrow. Or else he spins it, spider-like, out of his own bowels, and when its fer acutely for a time, but they will never become

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misery-mongers. Theirs is a healthiness of nature which has the power of throwing off disease to the final hour of worn-out nature. Their souls, like their bodies, will last to the utmost limit of a green old age, giving and taking comfort, a blessedness to themselves and all about them. In their course of life many a storm may come; but it never finds them unprepared. They are sound good ships, well rigged, well ballasted; if affliction comes, they just "make all snug," as the sailors say, and so are able to ride through seas of sorrow into a harbor of peace, finally, into that last harbor, where may Heaven bring at last every mortal soul, even miserymongers!

ed inhabitants of the modern lath and plaster abominations at four times the rent, as are the quiet and repose and retirement that belong to those old houses. But it was the surroundings of the cottage that made its great delight. For it stood off the road, from which it was quite hidden, nested down into the midst of a lovely garden, full of old-fashioned flowers and some newer ones, roses especially, one of which it was part of Nelly's self-imposed morning duties to gather, all gemmed and heavy with dew, to put it in her father's button-hole, before he started on his daily rounds. He used to boast that from May till November he never was without one. There were little belts and screens of Portugal laurels and yew, and sunny bits of lawn, one of which boasted a magnificent Himalaya pine THE DOCTOR'S DAUGHTER. feathering to the ground, and borders blazing with MILES and miles away from London, and nearly color and sunlight, and shady nooks, cool and green, an hour's drive from the nearest railway station, of rock-work clothed with ferns and ground-ivy and there is a village, as little known as might be ex- periwinkle and violets. The house itself, and all its pected from so remote a position. It is a charming-dependencies, were tapestried with Virginia creeper, ly pretty village, the houses, each with more or less clematis, jasmin, ivy, and crimson China roses, and of garden to it, scattered about, not ranged into against the coach-house wall, in the face of the any attempt at a street. There is a green, which southwest sun, was trained a vine that in even is green, and not parched and brown, and there the moderately hot summers yielded rich clusters of village boys play cricket in the long summer even-yellow-tinted, sweet-watered grapes southern vineings; and above it is a heathery common, bounded yards need not have despised. For the place was by a fir-wood, whose auburn trunks and boughs warm and dry and sheltered, and everything about burn in the sunset; while below, winding softly it throve, and seemed to take pleasure in growing through flat, rich pastures, a trout-stream glides be- and spreading, and Nelly loved and tended them tween its fringes of sedges and bulrushes and tall all, and they rewarded her. water myosotis, blue as turquoises in the sun.

Just out of the village stands the house with which we chiefly have to do. It is inhabited by Dr. Britton; he is an M. R. C. S., and used to make a fight to be called Mr. Britton, his proper title; but the village would not have it; his profession was doctoring, and doctor he was, and doctor he should be called; and so doctor he was called, till he had become so used to it, that any other prefix to his name would have sounded strange and unfamiliar. He was a widower, and had two children, -a son, who had married early and foolishly, and who had emigrated, which was about the best thing he could do, and a daughter, Nelly, who lived with him, and kept his house, and looked after him, from his shirt-buttons to such of his correspondence as a woman could attend to. For Mr. Britton was a much cleverer medico than village doctors and general practitioners are wont to be, and his practice was large and widely extended; all the county families for miles round employing his services for any but such cases as they conceived required the attendance of a London physician.

To this home Nelly had come as a little child, after her mother's death, and she remembered no other. That was a good many years ago, for she was now two-and-twenty, though she hardly looked so much. For she was a little thing, plump, with a round face, smiling dark eyes, and a bright brown complexion; one of those girls whose good looks consist in perfect health, in coloring and expression, and a certain freshness of appearance - freshness moral as well as physical-that keep the owner young for long. Her uneventful and unambitious life had hitherto passed in that happy monotony that is best suited to such natures as hers; cheerful, bright, contented ones, that take the daily duties of their humble lives as pleasures, not sacrifices, and are yet not without a touch of refinement that makes the duties less prosaic. She need not have been now keeping her father's house, had she been minded to keep a house of her own. Two years ago her father had had a half-pupil, half-assistant, Mr. Baker, who had a little money of his own, and expected to have some more, and who would fain have had her promise to become Mrs. Baker when he should have ac

him, very sorry. But she could not marry him. When she thought of her father as a companion (for not being in the faintest degree in love, she looked at the two men in this light), and then thought of Mr. Baker, she felt it could never, never be. And she had not for a moment, at any time, regretted or repented her decision, but went on in her quiet way, taking her chance of what the future might bring

The house in which Mr. Britton and his daughter quired sufficient age and instruction "to set up on lived was very unnecessarily large for so small a his own hook," as he expressed it. But Nelly had family. It could not be called a good house or a not been so minded. She did not care for Mr. Bapretty house, and yet, especially for the summer, it ker; she first laughed at him, and then, when he was much pleasanter than many a better and hand-became piteous in consequence, she was sorry for somer one. It was old, and the rooms were low, and those on the ground floor had beams across the ceilings, and the windows might have been larger with advantage, and the doors fewer and better placed. But the walls were thick, and there was abundance of space, and closets and cupboards enough to stow away all the goods and chattels of a large family. And there was a snug little stable for the Doctor's good roadster, and a chaise-house, and cow-her. house, and poultry-house, and larder and dairy, and Among Dr. Britton's occasional patients was a all that wealth of out-houses that can only be found very grand family indeed. The Earl of Leytonnow appertaining to old-fashioned middle-class tene-stone had an estate about three miles from Summerments, and which are as unattainable to the wretch- | field, and there he passed a part of every year with

his two children, the little Lord Leithbridge and | Lady Agnes Collingwood, who, under the care of a young tutor and an elderly governess, for their mother was dead, lived almost entirely at Leytonstone Hall. The young tutor was a north countryman, whose father, a poor clergyman, holding a little cure in a village among the hills in Westmoreland, had, seeing the boy's aptitudes, struggled hard to send him to college. He had educated him himself up to that point, and then Andrew Graham had entered Oxford as a sizer, and had worked, and read, and lived hard, as few men in that ancient seat of learning are given to do. He had carried all honors before him; he could write and speak five modern languages, and read seven; he knew at his fingers' ends all the best books in all these, beside the classical tongues; but of men and women he knew absolutely nothing. Poor, proud, intensely shy, and devoted to study, he lived entirely apart from even the men of his own standing in his own college. In their sport as in their work he kept aloof, only fortifying himself against the exhausting nature of his labors by prodigious walks, keeping always the same pace up hill and down dale, choosing the most solitary paths, and never heeding weather. In the course of time he had been so fortunate as to obtain his present post, that of tutor to the little Lord Leithbridge, and librarian to his father, who boasted the possession of one of the finest private libraries in England; and as his pupil was but twelve, his work with regard to him was so light, that the greater part of his time could easily be devoted to the labor he delighted in, the care and arrangement of his beloved books.

Poor Andrew, he was not comely to behold, and was young in nothing but his years. He was pale, and spare, and light-eyed, and lightish haired, and had thin whiskers, and wore high shirt-collars, and hesitated in his speech. He was so intensely, so painfully shy, and spoke so rarely, that when called upon to speak it seemed as though he was too unused to the employment of uttered language to be able to find the words he wanted. In the presence of women, and especially young women, he absolutely trembled. It was long before he could reply, without starting and shrinking, to Mrs. Brereton's Lady Agnes's governess softly spoken questions, and had Lady Agnes herself been more than thirteen when he first entered on his duties, I doubt if he would have ventured into her presence.

And yet it was not in human nature, in young human nature, at all events, to live without some companionship beyond that of a child. Andrew had had a bad and a long illness, and in this Dr. Britton had attended him, and when he recovered, it somehow came about that the patient had, he hardly knew how himself, found that it often happened that in his walks his steps tended towards the Doctor's cottage; and when he came to the garden gate, that was just an opening in the mass of green that surrounded and overtopped it, giving a peep through to the house along the sunny gravel-walk, lying between borders of glowing flowers, he remembered he had something to say to, or something to ask of, the Doctor. You will think that the Doctor's daughter might have been for something in this attraction; but it was not so. If he caught a glimpse of her in the garden, or heard her voice, he passed on his way with a nervous sense of the narrow escape he had encountered. This was at first; after having accidentally encountered her a few times when calling on her father, and found that she took little

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notice of him, he became more reassured, and beyond a certain amount of trepidation in taking off his hat, and replying to her simple greeting, he learned to meet her without further discomposure.

Nelly would look after him with a pitying wonder, and some curiosity. Such a nature and such a life as his to her, genial, energetic, expansive, was a painful puzzle. "Is he always like that, papa ? "

"Always, I believe, my dear, in company." "Then he never can know anybody." "Yes, I fancy in the course of time he might get to know people to a certain extent. He does mea little."

"He must be very unhappy, papa ?"

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Except when among his books, or in his long walks, he certainly must feel rather wretched, should imagine."

Nelly thought about it a little more, and then went to feed her poultry. But there was a young cock whose false and painful position in the poultryyard would somehow bring back to her mind the recollection of Mr. Graham. He had not long come to cock's estate, and he was thin and not very sleek in his plumage; and the older and stronger cock had bullied him and put him down, till he hardly dared to call his life his own. He was not naturally a coward; he had made a good fight for it at first, and indeed it was his asserting himself against the supremacy of King Chanticleer that had first awakened that arrogant bird's wrath against him. But he was no match for Chanticleer, and had, after innumerable defeats and sore maulings, been compelled to succumb; and he now loitered about in corners, and moped about in sheds, and took snatches of food in a wary fashion, on the outskirts of the group gathered round Nelly, ready to fly if ever Chanticleer looked his way, and even nervous if the hens pecked at him.

"Poor fellow," Nelly said, throwing him a handful of barley, and cutting off Chanticleer in his instant attempt to drive him away from it; "you certainly are very like Mr. Graham, very like. I think I shall call you Andy; get away, Chanticleer! I won't have Andy bullied and his life made miserable, poor fellow!" and another handful of barley fell to his share. From that day Nelly took Andy under her especial care and patronage, and fed and petted him till he grew fat and well-liking, and learned to play his second fiddle so creditably that Chanticleer held him in sufficient respect no longer to molest him.

Meanwhile the months were lengthening into years, and Andrew Graham plodded on at the old work, in the old way. But a change had come within, though the outer man showed nothing of it as yet. The cause may as well be told at once; the poor student had fallen in love, with the sort of love that is certain to awaken in the hearts of such men when it does awake, with Lady Agnes, now sixteen.

The word love is used in so many phases of the passion, and indeed in so many cases where there is no passion at all, that it fails to convey any notion of the feeling that possessed the whole being of the poor tutor. It is nothing to say it was part of himself; the old man was lost in the new identity it gave birth to. Day and night it was the one ever-present reality, all else fading into shadowy insignificance.

Lady Agnes was a pretty girl, very much like a thousand other pretty, well-brought-up, simple girls.

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