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sorting bis own Rights; Lewis basely encroaching on those of his Neighbours. Henry extricating hit Country from Misery;, and laying the Foundation of her Grandeur 5 Lfiyis squandering her Blood and Treasure, and reducing her from Grandeur to the Brink of Destruction. Henry forming Schemes for the perpetual Peace of Europe ; Lewis perpetually to disturb it. How little is. Lewis* compared to Henry the Great! •;
But to return to my Subject.—I am uneasy, when I see a Dog, a Horse, or any other Animal ill treated; for 1 consider them as endued with quick Sense, and no contemptible Share of Reason.; and that God gave Man Dominion overi them, not to play the Tyrant, but; to be a good Prince, and promote the Happiness of his Subjects. But I am much more uneasy at any Cruelty to my own Species; and heartily wish Procrustes disciplined in his own Bed, and Pbalarij in his Bull. A Man bruised all over in a Boxing Match, or cut to Pieces in fighting a Prize,- is a shocking Spectacle; and I think I could, with less Horror, fee a thoufand fall in Battle, than Human Nature thus depreciated and disgraced. Violence, when exerted in Wantonness or Passion, is Brutality; and can be termed Bravery, only when it is fanctified by Justice and Necessity. A mangled Carcase is not a pleasing Sight. Why therefore do Men pay for it; and the great Vulgar. encourage these Disorders "among the Small?
It is not Choice, but Affectation As many, who
'neither neither love nor understand Musick, go to an Opera to gain the Reputation of Conoifleurs; many go to Broughton's Theatre, to avoid the Imputation of being Cowards; but when they are at fa much Pains to avoid the Imputation, it raises a Suspicion that they are so.
I have been in a Situation to see not a little of the Pomp and Vanity, as well as of the Necessity and Misery of Mankind; but the last only asfect: me; and if, as a Magistrate, I am ever guilty of Partiality, it is in Favour of the Poor. When I am at Church among my poor, but honest, Neighbours in the Country; and fee them serious in performing the Ceremonies prescribed; Tears sometimes steal down my Cheek, on reflecting, that they are doing and hearing many Things they do not understand; while those, who understand them better, neglect them: tlftt they, who labour and live hard, are more thankful to Heaven, than those who fare luxuriously on the Fruits of their Labour; and are keeping and repeating the fourth Commandment, at the very .Instant the others are breaking it.
These are some of the Senfations I feel; which I have freely and fairly disclosed, that the Reader may judge, how far I am an Instance of a deformed Person wanting natural Affection. And I am a good Subject of Speculation; for all in me is Nature: for to own the Truth, I have taken but little Pains (though much I ought to have taken) to correct my natural Defects.
Lord Bacon's next Position is, " That deform« ed Persons are extremely bold. First in their
own "own Defence, as being exposed to Scorn; fetot "in Process of Time by a general Habit."-— This, probably is so among the inferior Sort, who are in the way of continual Insults; for a return of Abuse is a natural Weapon of Self-defence; and in some Measure justified by the Law of Retaliation; to upbraid a 'Man with a personal Defect, which he cannot help, is also an immoral Act ■ and he who does it, has reason to expect no better Quarter than to hear of Faults, which it was in his own Power not to commit. But I find this Observation far from being verified in myself: an unbecoming Bashfulness has been the Consequence of my ill Figure, and of the worse Management of me in my Childhood. I am always -uneasy, when any one looks stedfaftly on so bad a Picture; and cannot look with a proper Confidence in the Face of another. I have ever reproached myself with this Weakness, but am not able to correct it. And it may be a Difadvantage to a Man in the Opinion of those he converses with; for though true Modesty is amiable, the false is liable to Misconstruction: and when a Man is out of Countenance for no Reason, it may be imagined, that he had some bad Reason for being so. In point of Assurance, I am indeed a perfect Riddle to myself; for I, who seel a Reluctance in crosung a Drawing-room, or in opening my Mouth in private Company before Persons with whom I am not well acquainted, find little in delivering my Sentiments in Publick, and exposing my Discourse, often as trifling as my Person, to the Ears of a ThouVol. I. F fand
- fand. From what Cause this proceeds I know . not: it may be, partly from Hopes of wiping off any ill Impressions from my Person by my Discourse; partly from a Sense of doing my Duty; and partly from a Security in public Assemblies . from any gross personal Reflections.
Lord Bacon compares the Cafe of deformed Persons to that of Eunuchs; " in whom Kings ." were wont to put great Trust as good Spials "and Whisperers; for they that are envious to"wards all, are more obnoxious and officious to. wards one."—But, with Submission to so good a Judge of Human Nature, I own, I can discover no uncommon Qualification in them for Spies; and very few motives to Envy peculiar to themselves. Spies submit to that base and ungenerous Office, either for the Sake of Interest or Power: if for Interest, it is to gratify their Covetousness; if for Power, their Ambition or Revenge: which Passions are not confined to the Eunuch or Deformed; but indiscriminately seize all Classes of Men. Envy too may prompt a Man to mean Actions, in order to bring down the Person envied to his own Level; but if it is on account of Superiority of Fortune, it will operate alike on Men of all Shapes. Eunuchs have but one peculiar Motive to Envy; but that (as Lord Bacon expresses it) makes them envious towards all: because it is for a Pleasure, which all but themselves may enjoy. Deformed Persons are deprived only of Beauty and Strength, and therefore those alone are to be deemed the extraordinary Motives to their Envy; for they can no more be beautiful or strongs
ihan than Eunuchs be successful Lovers. As to myself, whatever Sparks of Envy might be in my Constitution, they are now entirely extinguished; for, by frequent and serious Reflection, I have long been convinced of the small.Value of most Things which Men value the most.
There is another Passion to which deformed Persons seem to be more exposed, than to Envy i which is Jealousy; for, being conscious that. they are less amiable than others, they -may naturally suspect, that they are less beloved. I have the Happiness to speak this from Conjecture, and not from Experience ; for it was my Lot, many Years ago to marry a young Lady, very piously educated, and of a very distinguished Family, and whose Virtues are an Honour to her Family, and her Sex i so that I had never any Trial of my Temper; and eafl only guess at it by Emotions I have felt in my younger Days; when Ladies have been more liberal of their Smiles to those, whom I thought in every respect, but Person, my Inferiors.
The most useful Inference from all this to a deformed Person, is to be upon his Guard against thole Frailties to which he is more particularly exposed; and to "be careful, :that the' outward Frame do not distort the Soul. [/'] Orundumefl, let us pray, -fays Juvenal, ut ft metis fana in corpore fano, for a found Mind in a healthy Body; and <very deformed Person ihould add this Petition,
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