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the room, yet, round about her own sta- various authors, upon widely different tion, she had cast a shadow and a cloud, subjects, but principally religious, interand she shined to every body but spersed with her own observations; her berself."
readiness to seize opportunities for inBy all who knew her, our departed structive and religious conversation; friend was considered to be a bright ex- her love to the publie means of grace ; ample of the power of religion, and she and her steady attention to private reexhibited, in no common degree, its ligious duties, mark the habits of a tendency to improve and elevate the Christian on the wing for heaven, and whole character, exalting the intellect, desirous, before her translation, to have purifying the taste, giving a sacred and this testimony that she pleased God. holy direction to all the active powers, She had even begun the study of Greek, and enabling her to endure protracted with a view to employ the long hours sufferings, as seeing him who is invi- during which she was mostly a prisoner sible. We all know that eminent ex- to the sofa, in contemplating the pure cellence is unattainable, in any depart- word of God as received from its oriment, without a full dedication of mind ginal fountain. to the pursuit in question. The expe- All this, let it be recollected, was rience of the Christian church presents done, or attempted, in the midst of bo. no exception to this general rule. They dily pains and sufferings, arising from a who have been signalized for their at- complication of disorders, which would tainments in the holiness and happiness have paralyzed an ordinary mind, and of the Christian life, have usually, under furnished a temptation to indolence, the intluences of Divine grace, been and, perhaps, an apology for it, which stirred up to make the care of the soul few persons less active or less conscienthe prize of their high calling, the ob- tious than herself would have been able ject of supreme concern. They have to resist or decline. The following mesought for this wisdom as for silver, and lancholy record, found in the last leaf lifted up their voice for understanding, of her Diary, originally written in pencil, searching after it as miners dig for gold, disclosing the manner in which the or as those who would ransack the mo- greater part of two years was spent, numents of antiquity, or penetrate the when she was little more than thirty recesses of the sepulchre, to possess years of age, will illustrate what we themselves of hidden treasure.*
mean. To us it is very affecting, like Thus anxiously did the subject of this the faint memorials traced by the tremmemoir give herself to the word of God bling hand of a prisoner upon the walls and to prayer, sedulously aiming to re- of his cell, to indicate the chief eras of press the tendencies of evil, and to che- his captivity; and, to those who know rish that which was good, opening her what bodily infirmity and suffering mind to the influence of the kind and mean, will require no comment. generous affections, and stedfastly op- “ March 10, 1820, took to my bed. posing those of a contrary character. May 3, Mr. Moody (a medical gentleman) Earnestly attached to the distinguishing came from Bath. June 6, lay first on the doctrines of the Gospel, in their fulness, plane. May 29, 1821, Dr. Gaitskell their freeness, and their consolatory in- came. August 23, stood a minute, with fluence as centering her hope in Christ assistance. September 8, walked with alone, she was no less solicitous to ex- a stick and arm from the bed to the emplify their practical and holy influ- chair. September 11, dressed loosely ence. As Christ died for sin, she was for the first time; walked into the anxious to die to it, and to have her kitchen. September 23, walked to the life hid with Christ in God. Her various Dove-yard door. September 26, remanuscripts attest her solicitude to pro- moved the plane. March 13, 1822, went secute, with undeviating assiduity, the to Bath. June, returned." great ends of the Christian calling. Her But however great her sufferings, she interleaved Bible, containing remarks of repined not. The following extract, her own upon different passages, with written on the twelfth anniversary of her criticisms from the writings of standard marriage, shows how devoutly she redivines; her books of extracts from ferred to the wisdom of God in the
appointment of her trials, and his merev Prov, ii. 1-6.
in the mitigation of them.
“When will these painful moments rection, visiting Cheltenham in 1819; cease? when shall I live? Say, O my at Bath in the years 1822 and 1823; at God, peace, be still. The elements are Cirencester, on a visit to her mother, in most tempestuous—deep calleth unto November, 1823; and at the Isle of deep. Thy waves and billows are gone Wight in May, 1824. From the lastover me. Oh, God! dispel this gloom. mentioned date to her decease she was Convince me of the sin even of a mo- principally confined to her own chammentary murmuring. Have I not seen ber. During her visits at Bath, whilst enough? Should not past days convince under the care of Dr. Gaitskell, she me that thou hast power to bring again availed herself of all opportunities in from the very depths? What !--though her power, though these were not nuthis feeble frame, tottering, and even merous, of hearing Mr. Jay; and has sinking, forbidding my temporal enjoy- left her recorded testimony, as numement, leaves the enemy of souls room to rous sufferers besides have done, to the cast his darts-shall Í despair of deli- pleasure and advantage with which she verance if I ask it? I may, for a sea- listened to the faithful and consoling son, be in heaviness
ministrations of that eminent divine. “But rise, my soul, and stretch thy wing,
One great evidence of personal piety Thy better portion trace.
is found in active concern to hring others Here is no continuance; by to-morrow's to the knowledge of the truth, and espesetting sun I may be happy-happy in cially those who come more immediately God. Why, then, sorrow? a day will under the sphere of our influence. We come when I know that I shall see the may suspect the religion that terminates mercy of this affliction. God cannot wholly in self, or which is so narrow err; he doth all things well; and and contracted that the circumference though heaviness may endure for a seems to touch the centre. Religion night, he hath tenderly promised joy in may be often assumed where it is not; the morning: like as a father pitieth it can scarcely be hidden, for any great his children (how intinitely above all length of time, where it actually is. earthly parent's pity), so the Lord pi- “The ointment bewrayeth itself” by its tieth them that fear him; he knoweth own odour. Goodness is, in its very our frame, and remembereth that we are nature, communicative. “The wisdom but dust. Thanks to his name, that from above,” among its other attributes, while I write I feel the load departing, “is full of mercy and good fruits." It the shadows disperse, and I am once dissolves the ice-rock of selfishness in more resigned. Oh what melancholy the bosom, and causes the winter of the hours ! how tedious! these are not those soul to be succeeded by a new and nobler hours that fly, but their every moment spring. Love to God and love to man, lingers as the dew-drop for the sun- like two kindred flames lighted at the beam. May they usher in a brighter same moment, and supplied from the day, in which my soul, divested of these same source, will always characterize worldly harpics, may live alone to God. and distinguish those who are born of
* Evening:- This day recalls many a God. “We cannot but speak of the pleasing and many a painful thought: things we have heard." This indiiwelve years are passed since I became cation of the genuineness of her Christhe wife of the tenderest of husbands; tian principle shone conspicuously in for on that day which united us in the the character of our departed friend. tenderest of bands-we did not think of “Stars teach, as well as shine. A good the coming sorrows, our hearts were man seen, though silent, counsel gives." light—the sun shone splendidly, and we Not that she was obtrusive in her zeal; dreamed not of a storm : what would quite the contrary. “ She watched for have been my feelings had I thought of souls.” Her sick room was a school of the anxious years I was about to inflict religious edification to those who could on the dear object of my warmest re- sympathize with her order of feeling. gard. How wise is a concealed fu- The souls of servants, so inconsistently lurity! We have not our days of ease neglected by many mistresses of famiembittered by the approach of pain lies wbo call themselves Christians, etuier mental or corporeal—* Tis wis- were precious in her estimation, and dom all.'”
their morals were kindly, but carefully, With the hope of allaying her dis- watched over. Her pen was employed orders, we find her, under medical di- when her tongue could not speak.
Draughts of letters have been found and most profitable moments which since her decease, addressed to her ser- thousands have spent on earth. You vants, to her honoured parents, to her may think it unnecessary, since you husband, to her neighbours, to her hus- mix comparatively little with the world, band's friends, enjoining upon them an thus to urge solitude upon you; but it attention to the things belonging to is converse with your own heart, and
On one occasion she with God, which can alone render it availed herself of the medium of the either desirable or profitable; and is the public press, and, in the columns of the only kind of occasional seclusion from * Bath and Cheltenham Gazette," ad- active life which is of vital importance, dressed an able letter (for she had con- and which I am anxious to impress siderable taste in literary composition), on you as imperative. You can now under an assumed signature, advocating look only on the mortal remains of one an attention to the condition and the whom, for near thirty years, you have interests of servants. The most tender not ceased to protect and love. The allusions are found in her Diary to the last look you will take may recall to your state of mind of her mother, who appears mind many of the painful scenes through to have been mournfully averse from re- which we have passed together. Perligion, and whom she earnestly implored, haps you may think few have had heabut apparently in vain, to seek the bless- vier trials; but endeavour to reckon the ings of salvation. But the most frequent mercies which have followed us, the references are to her husband, expressive greatest of which has, doubtless, been of her intense solicitude for his salva- secured to the now departed spirit by tion. We envy not those who can read the very painful discipline with which the following touching letter without it has been exercised. Oh, my dear emotion, written to be delivered to him love, how often have I sighed and wept after her decease, which is here inserted, at the thought of leaving you—these not without his permission, in the hope are now for ever past; I shall no more that it will prove useful to others. do either on your account; may you
“MY DEAREST EARTHLY LOVE,-An now do it yourself, on account of sin; appellation you have long borne, but and may weeping and sighing speedily which, when these lines shall meet your terminate in that settled peace of God view, will have been dissolved, and I shall which passeth all understanding. And have left you in a world of disappoint- have I bade you a last earthly adieu ? ment and sorrow to prosecute your jour- Must I no longer be permitted to hold ney alone. How manifold are the interests terrestrial converse with so dear an obwhich now hang on this thought-now, ject? It is now over; the word is gone at the moment of your reading, how forth; and soon the changed remnant changed !!! Will you follow me ? Oh, of mortality will be hid from your sight. my love, leave all for Christ ;-what is Will you then forget the anxiety, the a man profited, &c. &c. The thought care, the love, of your departed wife? of a final separation has made me shed No, you have not such a heart. Adieu, many tears, has been, at times, ago- then, my dearest earthly friend; renizing. This you have known; suffer member that my anxiety and care were it not, I entreat you; you cannot know directed chiefly to your immortal inwhat true happiness means, so far as it terest. Let us meet again. can be known, in such a world as this,
“ ANN LLOYD." unless you are a sincere follower of Of the closing hours of this excellent Christ: and would you not possess a woman it is sufficient to say that they blessing, within your reach, so rich and were in perfect consistency with the exhaustless ? Oh, my dear, my best tenour of her life, and the uniform chaearthly friend, the sweet kindly thrown racter of her religious experience. Her into my bitter cup of earthly suffering, prevailing state of mind, though marked the undeviating friend, I charge you, by by her characteristic humility, was reevery tender tie uhich has bound us on
plete with peace, and hope, and tranquil earth, to meet me in heaven. You know joy. Some time before her decease, apthe world has many allurements, but prehending the hour of departure to be they must be given up: do it imme- near at hand, she made an effort, at diately and unreservedly. Let solitude different intervals through the day, to be found rather a recreation ; it should write, in pencil, a letter to her valued be such; it has yielded the sweetest friend at Cambridge, taking a last and affecting farewell, and requesting a life supports me in the hour of death. I reply from him by the next post, though have had my doubts and I have had my scarcely expecting to live till she should trials, but they are all gone by. I have receive it. Her letter most impressively got beyond the reach of all, and I have referred to the deep solemnity which a better prospect in view. O, the preperrad d her spirits in the immediate cious blood of Christ! That blood shall prospect of making the great transition never lose its power till all the ransomed from time to eternity. She seemed ab- church of God--all, not one lost-shall sorbed with the thought that one so un- be saved-for ever saved, 'to sin no worthy should be called to mingle with more. I want no other foundation. the sinless intelligences before the Christ is my only refuge. Did all the throne of God, with prophets, apostles, world know his goodness, all the world and martyrs; but, most of all, she was would yield to him the tribute of its impressed with a sacred and tender awe love." in the sublime anticipation of standing Enough may be gathered from these before the eternal archetype of infinite broken and detached observations, impurity and perfection,-a God of spot- perfectly remembered, to perceive the less truth and sanctity. Yet this was enviable state of her mind, which rennot the fear that hath torment, but al- dered her dying chamber a memorable lied in its degree to the emotion of bend- spot to those who entered it, and iming and adoring seraphs, who veil their pressed upon all the connexion which faces with their wings in the presence subsists between a life of devotion and a of the thrice Holy One; for her hope, death of peacefulness and triumph. full of immortality, remained stedfast Thus was the prayer, contained in the and unshaken to the last, being founded, beautiful lines found in her handas she repeatedly expressed it, on the writing, and apparently her own comrock, Christ.
position (for she sometimes expressed When the actual crisis approached, it her feelings in harmonious numbers), was observable that the fear of death, completely realized : to which, through life, she had been
"Give me that hope which will remain sometimes subject to bondage, having
When the deaih-pillow bears my head; accomplished its destined end, was com
When every hope is reft in twain, pletely done away, and death came upon
And every earthly joy has fled.” her without a cloud, like the bright, Mrs. Lloyd died at Malmsbury, in calm, majestic sunset of an autumnal Wiltshire, May 23, 1834, in the fortyday. “ At eventide it was light.” Some fourth year of her age, having been born of her latest expressions, rich in senti- at Ross, in Herefordshire, May 7, 1790. ment and spirituality, which her friends Her brother, who died before her, the regretted they did not copy at the time, Rev. Mr. Garlick, succeeded the emiturned upon the deep sense she enter- nent and excellent Rev. Cornelius Wintained of her own demerit, and her ter, at Painswick, Gloucestershire. trust in the all-sufficient grace of Christ. At the request of her husband and “How can I, who am so unworthy, ex- friends, her funeral sermon was preached pect to find mercy with him ? and yet by the Rev. S. Thodey, from Heb. ii. 15. I can; there is mercy, and mercy for The Rev.John Burder, of Stroud, whose me. Here is firm footing, here is solid friendship she greatly valued, attended rock, and all is sea beside." Awaking at the funeral, and delivered an imup at five in the morning, she asked pressive address to the mourning surwhat time it was, and being told, said, vivors in the chamber of death, which * What, no later? but I shall not die to- is still gratefully remembered. day, for this day will be given me to We have only to regret that, from the tell what God has done for me. He necessary limits of our space, it has has snatched me as a brand from the been impracticable to give longer exburning. He has done all things well. tracts from her Diary and Letters, It is well for me that I have been af- which possess excellence of no ordinary flicted. I can look back upon this bed kind. This record, however, brief and of suffering in times past, and say, with inadequate as it is, will not have been pleasure too, all my pains are turned to written in vain, if it tend to endear the joy, and they have proved good to my name and grace of Christ, and the consoul. And now, also, I can say, that solations of his Gospel, to any who are that religion which has supported me in called to follow her in the path of grief
and sadness; and if it prompt to the diligent use of those moral means, so successful in her case, by which a harvest of immortal joy may be reaped from a seed-time of tears. · Wherefore let
them that suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to him, in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator." Cambridge.
NEW YEAR'S DAY. “ It is said to be the custom, in some snow descends, and covers all with its nations, to mourn at the birth of a cold and cheerless mantle. child, because of the anticipated evils “Nature, however, is only in a state of which it is destined to endure in this repose. Rest was necessary to recruit vale of tears. This is, doubtless, to her exhausted strength. But, during form a false estimate of human life, in her repose, the hand of him who ‘slumwhich, on the average, pleasure far pre- bereth not' has been working in secret. dominates over pain ; and surely the The germs of future plants and flowers contrary custom, of rejoicing when an- have been wonderfully preserved : inother rational and immortal creature is sects, reptiles, birds, and beasts have brought into existence, is much more all partaken of a Father's care; and his justifiable. But I am not certain that rational creatures have been enabled, the same principle will apply to the by employing the higher powers with birth of a new year. There are so many which he has gifted them, to provide for recollections of past delinquencies and the supply of their more numerous neomissions, and of lapses that can never cessities and comforts. be repaired, to unite with anticipations “ And now a new scene appears. The of the future, so much to regret as well sun has changed his course, and begins as to fear, that the thoughtless levity again to take a wider circuit in the with which this first day of another an- heavens. Soon his warmth, and glory, nual cycle is generally ushered in seems and genial influence will return. Nato be altogether misplaced. We should ture will burst anew into life, and beauty, certainly do what is at once more rea- and joy. The husbandman will once sonable and more edifying, were we to more ply his labours, while hope cheers spend the first hours of a new year in his toil, and solemn meditation, both on the past
• The lark, high pois'd, and on the future.
Makes heaven's blue concave vocal with his lay;' ! “But in such an exercise, while there and, all around, the cattle browse on is cause of self-accusation and of sorrow, the tender herbage as it rises, and the there is also ground for gratitude, for bleating lambs play amidst the flocks hope, and for enjoyment. The protect- scattered over the neighbouring hills. ing care of an overruling Providence is “ As the year advances, summer will a fruitful source of these feelings, whe- again begin to smile, and will cast from ther we regard external Nature, or re- her green lap a profusion of flowers. flect on our own individual experience The seed thrown into the bosom of the of the guidance and protection of a Fa- earth will germinate and grow; the ther's unseen hand. It is to the former tender blade will rise and shoot, someof these subjects that the peculiar na- times watered by the rain and dew; ture of this work seems at present to sometimes cherished by the genial heat call our attention.
of the sun's direct rays ; sometimes “When Nature is in the sleep of winter, shaded from his too fervid beams by all seems dreary, and desolate, and hope- the gathering clouds, and refreshed by less. Day after day the sun, whose the morning and evening breeze. beams had shed light and life over the “At last comes autumn, crowned with world, takes a shorter and a lower path plenty. The orchards teem with golden in the heavens; his brightness and fruit; the full ears of yellow grain wave warmth decrease ; chilling blasts sweep
in the fields; the busy reaper sings as the plain; the flowers fade; the leaves he toils; the farms are filled with food fall; the grass no longer springs for the for man and beast, and the hopes of the cattle; the sound of music is hushed; husbandman are fulfilled. Amidst a the earth becomes rigid ; the surface of thousand varied and most bountiful prethe waters is converted into crystal; the parations for the sustenance of animal